How we scar ourselves

Morning

Waking up this morning to complete quiet, you slowly ooze out of bed. A promise is a promise, and you promised. The heaviness of the promise looms in the air, wraps itself in the folds of your skin even as you attempt to smile at your bedraggled image in the mirror. You get a grimace in return.

You think of writing.

But no. What good has it brought you this time? Sure the words flow easily now, they pour out of you like never before. But you speak too much of the truth and your words are potent in the absence of knives. Everything is so new to you and a thought comes to mind. Not good enough. 


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Bones.

Ano ang naiwan?

Mistulang nilamon ng ulan ng iyong pagkawala ang baga

ng damdaming minsang umawit sa kagalakan.

Walang takas

ang nalulusaw na mga ngiti,

nangingisay na mga kamay na walang mahawakan,

at nangangalawang na bibig 

mula sa dumadausdos na tubig

ng kawalan.

Tanging ang usok na dala nitong pagbulusok ng puso

ang naiwan sa iyong paglisan.

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Into the abyss.

No hearts

And yet

I've said this far too often

how one day we will be nothing more
than bits and pieces of dust

swirling in the vast expanse of sky

without direction. 

Nothing.

No arms for reaching nor

hearts for feeling.

So this I tell you:

We are running out of time

to claim this brightness while we still can.

Because, really,

What else have we got than

you and me?

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At 1:38 a.m.: Dissatisfied with this poem. Seems like a quilt of verses, scraps and spillage, almost there but not quite. A deletion seems necessary so ---

Red Flags

uttering her name you fell completely
unaware how the sonant curved into a warning
planting a seed of sadness in your heart
only to blossom majestically

its thirst quenched with tears ---
tendrils enveloping the organ
powerless to contain the burgeoning
darkness within

like a flock of birds with fractured wings
struggling, beating mercilessly
through your cage of blood and bone
poised for flight

in the stillness of the night.



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Night terrors are the pits.